I guess my brain was emphasizing on the word FAT.
It's such a scary word, it really is. I am very afraid of becoming fat, it makes you lose your self-esteem, it makes you feel inadequate and most importantly, unhealthy. There was once I almost became anorexic, 2 years back I just wouldn't eat. I didn't feel hungry, I didn't wanna be hungry and I didn't like to eat.
I wanted to keep my 24-inch waist to the grave, I wanted to be skinny. More of my heavier but average weight schoolmates would always ask me to eat more. I believe the reason was rather obvious. They would call themselves fat all the time and say they wished they had my weight and then ask me to put on more.
Great friends I have.
Anyway, I also wanted to be taller. So I figured, heck why not? I'll just eat all I can right now during puberty and grow as tall as I can and once I'm 18 I'll just slim down. I started binging, choclates, ice-cream, pastries and chips. Hmm, not quite healthy but since I've let myself go I went all the way.
I started reading Canadian Living, Men's Health, Cleo magazine and became very concerned for my health. For one, I became a vegetarian frequently. Likeee, cutting down red meat to about once or twice a month? Eating fish every week and mostly veggies everyday.
I loved vegetables so it wasn't a struggle for me. I loved animals as well so the thought of killing or hurting an animal that didn't maul me wasn't nice. Right now, I am in-between the both extremes. Problem is, I'm not exercising. I haven't played a sport for months. Trekked a little, walked around and did random jumps whenever I can but of course that's not enough.
People unknowingly become obese because it's a very slow progression. Pound by pound, centimeter by centimeter, they obliviously let their tummy bloat. In nearly two years I have gained 6kg and 2in. I am not gonna let that happen to me.
It's like lightning, like Kimora Lee Simmons. Who was once so hot and slender is now a mother of two children and is overweight. Time's like lightning, it strikes you and you're doomed. In a flash you've put on 20 pounds because of your ignorance.
See why I was so afraid of food?!
Now I coined the word 'fatning'. It's when you become fat in a flash/gain weight rapidly. That's one word you don't want happening to you. So please don't force me to eat pork, beef or chicken. I DON'T WANNA! I hate chocolates because I love them so much. I get mad when people try to make me eat those.
Once, my bestie made breakfast for me which was real sweet. She asked if I wanted pork and I said no. When I got out of bed and went into the chicken (oops, I meant kitchen), on two plates were
"I can't finish it!!" She angrily said.
Hell, I was gawking. WHY IS SHE THE ONE ANGRY?!
"I told you I didn't want it!" I TOLD HER.
"YOU NEED TO EAT SOME MEAT."
"I EAT FISH AND I HAD CHICKEN LAST NIGHT."
"YOU NEED MORE MEAT."
That conversation didn't go well. I compromised by chewing on one and she threw away the rest. Yes, I was mad at that as well. Mad for cooking me something she knew I wouldn't eat and then wasting it by dumping it in the trash while blaming me for it.
Well of course I know she did it with good intentions. Next time I should force down broccolis down her throat explaining that it prevents cancer. HEE (^_^)Y
Er, so. I do not know what this post initially was about. Just know that people judge you by your image and always make an effort to stay in shape. Don't let your homies tell you it's alright to eat junk food 'cus you can afford to. They're gonna say it everytime and in NO time you'll be just like them!
P/S: Don't judge other people by their appearance either and wonder why they want to go for plastic surgery.